This is the story that atarena has given to me... its a nice story... Read it...
Haruki Murakami: On seeing the 100% perfect girl one beautiful April morning
One beautiful April morning, on a narrow side street in Tokyo's fashionable Harujuku neighborhood, I walked past the 100% perfect girl.
Tell you the truth, she's not that good-looking. She doesn't stand out in any way. Her clothes are nothing special. The back of her hair is still bent out of shape from sleep. She isn't young, either - must be near thirty, not even close to a "girl," properly speaking. But still, I know from fifty yards away: She's the 100% perfect girl for me. The moment I see her, there's a rumbling in my chest, and my mouth is as dry as a desert.
Maybe you have your own particular favorite type of girl - one with slim ankles, say, or big eyes, or graceful fingers, or you're drawn for no good reason to girls who take their time with every meal. I have my own preferences, of course. Sometimes in a restaurant I'll catch myself staring at the girl at the next table to mine because I like the shape of her nose.
But no one can insist that his 100% perfect girl correspond to some preconceived type. Much as I like noses, I can't recall the shape of hers - or even if she had one. All I can remember for sure is that she was no great beauty. It's weird.
"Yesterday on the street I passed the 100% girl," I tell someone.
"Yeah?" he says. "Good-looking?"
"Not really."
"Your favorite type, then?"
"I don't know. I can't seem to remember anything about her - the shape of her eyes or the size of her breasts."
"Strange."
"Yeah. Strange."
"So anyhow," he says, already bored, "what did you do? Talk to her? Follow her?"
"Nah. Just passed her on the street."
She's walking east to west, and I west to east. It's a really nice April morning.
Wish I could talk to her. Half an hour would be plenty: just ask her about herself, tell her about myself, and - what I'd really like to do - explain to her the complexities of fate that have led to our passing each other on a side street in Harajuku on a beautiful April morning in 1981. This was something sure to be crammed full of warm secrets, like an antique clock build when peace filled the world.
After talking, we'd have lunch somewhere, maybe see a Woody Allen movie, stop by a hotel bar for cocktails. With any kind of luck, we might end up in bed.
Potentiality knocks on the door of my heart.
Now the distance between us has narrowed to fifteen yards.
How can I approach her? What should I say?
"Good morning, miss. Do you think you could spare half an hour for a little conversation?"
Ridiculous. I'd sound like an insurance salesman.
"Pardon me, but would you happen to know if there is an all-night cleaners in the neighborhood?"
No, this is just as ridiculous. I'm not carrying any laundry, for one thing. Who's going to buy a line like that?
Maybe the simple truth would do. "Good morning. You are the 100% perfect girl for me."
No, she wouldn't believe it. Or even if she did, she might not want to talk to me. Sorry, she could say, I might be the 100% perfect girl for you, but you're not the 100% boy for me. It could happen. And if I found myself in that situation, I'd probably go to pieces. I'd never recover from the shock. I'm thirty-two, and that's what growing older is all about.
We pass in front of a flower shop. A small, warm air mass touches my skin. The asphalt is damp, and I catch the scent of roses. I can't bring myself to speak to her. She wears a white sweater, and in her right hand she holds a crisp white envelope lacking only a stamp. So: She's written somebody a letter, maybe spent the whole night writing, to judge from the sleepy look in her eyes. The envelope could contain every secret she's ever had.
I take a few more strides and turn: She's lost in the crowd.
Now, of course, I know exactly what I should have said to her. It would have been a long speech, though, far too long for me to have delivered it properly. The ideas I come up with are never very practical.
Oh, well. It would have started "Once upon a time" and ended "A sad story, don't you think?"
Once upon a time, there lived a boy and a girl. The boy was eighteen and the girl sixteen. He was not unusually handsome, and she was not especially beautiful. They were just an ordinary lonely boy and an ordinary lonely girl, like all the others. But they believed with their whole hearts that somewhere in the world there lived the 100% perfect boy and the 100% perfect girl for them. Yes, they believed in a miracle. And that miracle actually happened.
One day the two came upon each other on the corner of a street.
"This is amazing," he said. "I've been looking for you all my life. You may not believe this, but you're the 100% perfect girl for me."
"And you," she said to him, "are the 100% perfect boy for me, exactly as I'd pictured you in every detail. It's like a dream."
They sat on a park bench, held hands, and told each other their stories hour after hour. They were not lonely anymore. They had found and been found by their 100% perfect other. What a wonderful thing it is to find and be found by your 100% perfect other. It's a miracle, a cosmic miracle.
As they sat and talked, however, a tiny, tiny sliver of doubt took root in their hearts: Was it really all right for one's dreams to come true so easily?
And so, when there came a momentary lull in their conversation, the boy said to the girl, "Let's test ourselves - just once. If we really are each other's 100% perfect lovers, then sometime, somewhere, we will meet again without fail. And when that happens, and we know that we are the 100% perfect ones, we'll marry then and there. What do you think?"
"Yes," she said, "that is exactly what we should do."
And so they parted, she to the east, and he to the west.
The test they had agreed upon, however, was utterly unnecessary. They should never have undertaken it, because they really and truly were each other's 100% perfect lovers, and it was a miracle that they had ever met. But it was impossible for them to know this, young as they were. The cold, indifferent waves of fate proceeded to toss them unmercifully.
One winter, both the boy and the girl came down with the season's terrible inluenza, and after drifting for weeks between life and death they lost all memory of their earlier years. When they awoke, their heads were as empty as the young D. H. Lawrence's piggy bank.
They were two bright, determined young people, however, and through their unremitting efforts they were able to acquire once again the knowledge and feeling that qualified them to return as full-fledged members of society. Heaven be praised, they became truly upstanding citizens who knew how to transfer from one subway line to another, who were fully capable of sending a special-delivery letter at the post office. Indeed, they even experienced love again, sometimes as much as 75% or even 85% love.
Time passed with shocking swiftness, and soon the boy was thirty-two, the girl thirty.
One beautiful April morning, in search of a cup of coffee to start the day, the boy was walking from west to east, while the girl, intending to send a special-delivery letter, was walking from east to west, but along the same narrow street in the Harajuku neighborhood of Tokyo. They passed each other in the very center of the street. The faintest gleam of their lost memories glimmered for the briefest moment in their hearts. Each felt a rumbling in their chest. And they knew:
She is the 100% perfect girl for me.
He is the 100% perfect boy for me.
But the glow of their memories was far too weak, and their thoughts no longer had the clarity of fouteen years earlier. Without a word, they passed each other, disappearing into the crowd. Forever.
A sad story, don't you think?
Yes, that's it, that is what I should have said to her
Perfect Girl and Perfect Boy
31 May 2004
Ocean... she is sick today and not coming to work... seems to get a bit quieter huh.. hehee~~ hope that she is fine.. take care ya?
For me, i am not feeling that good also... was having a flu on Sunday.. and today when i was coming to work, there was a heavy traffic jam.. and i was like, suffocating in the crampy bus.. having a bit of headache.. and difficulty in getting some air... now feeling much better...
Tomorrow our company is having an activity.. Paintball at Yishun's OCC. dunno what to wear leh~~ sianz... they say its good to wear long sleeves so that u wont get bruised when you get shot.. chiam lah.. i think i sure kana shot one... somemore i got poor aiming skills... anyways.. i'll see when the time comes..(which is tomolo?!)
Having 2 meetings later... boring... but that occupies my time for today.. not bad too.. hahaa~~ better than nothing to do.. oh ya, actually there's something to do.. but i dun wanna finish that fast... hehee~~
For me, i am not feeling that good also... was having a flu on Sunday.. and today when i was coming to work, there was a heavy traffic jam.. and i was like, suffocating in the crampy bus.. having a bit of headache.. and difficulty in getting some air... now feeling much better...
Tomorrow our company is having an activity.. Paintball at Yishun's OCC. dunno what to wear leh~~ sianz... they say its good to wear long sleeves so that u wont get bruised when you get shot.. chiam lah.. i think i sure kana shot one... somemore i got poor aiming skills... anyways.. i'll see when the time comes..(which is tomolo?!)
Having 2 meetings later... boring... but that occupies my time for today.. not bad too.. hahaa~~ better than nothing to do.. oh ya, actually there's something to do.. but i dun wanna finish that fast... hehee~~
Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday to you Benny!!! Didnt hear from you ever since you joined NS... kun cant find you to go for his birthday chalet also.. hope that you are ok... Anyway, hope that you will have a good time today... and many happy returns!!
30 May 2004
Went to watch ~The day after tomorrow~ on friday... thats a very nice show...about the possible consequences of global warming - the northern hem will become ice age?! the effects are great... the love and motivation for a dad to walk all the way in such cold temperature to find his only son... a touching movie... i recommend it to guys out there who havent watch..
Yesterday went sentosa with colleagues again... and again, i didnt get into the sea... i dun like to get wet and also, i got a bit of huge pool of water.. ya.. phobia... i basically acted like a watchdog? hehee~~ no lah.. i was there sitting alone and take care of their bags loh.. did play for a while, take pictures etc.. so its not completely boring for me too! i gotta take care and play with Rose..
today... there's nothing much for me to do except to watch tv... oh ya, borrowed ~50 first dates to watch~... thats a cute one... the story is ok... but i am touched by the love that one can give to another... making the girl fall in love with him everyday...(because the girl got short term memory loss...)
When can i find mine? It has been 6 days since he last contacted me...
Yesterday went sentosa with colleagues again... and again, i didnt get into the sea... i dun like to get wet and also, i got a bit of huge pool of water.. ya.. phobia... i basically acted like a watchdog? hehee~~ no lah.. i was there sitting alone and take care of their bags loh.. did play for a while, take pictures etc.. so its not completely boring for me too! i gotta take care and play with Rose..
today... there's nothing much for me to do except to watch tv... oh ya, borrowed ~50 first dates to watch~... thats a cute one... the story is ok... but i am touched by the love that one can give to another... making the girl fall in love with him everyday...(because the girl got short term memory loss...)
When can i find mine? It has been 6 days since he last contacted me...
28 May 2004
Hiz.... yesterday went to meet my fellow coursemate... a year younger then me... he went to the same attachment lab as me... Under Ross in University of Queensland.. he showed me a lot of pictures he took using his handphone camera.. not bad huh... he also got take some short videos... wah... How Lian leh... he really talked a lot... dun even have the chance for me to get a drink... boring... then after tat no dinner also.. i went to pack home to eat... whereas my parents and brother were having sting ray and sambal kangkong... sobsob...
Today going for movie... Yippee.. its friday... (somewhere my heart is not feeling that happy... coz it has been 3 days since he last smsed me....) May be going to or rather will be going to sentosa tomolo... hot hot hot.. will become black i think.. the weather is so hot nowadays....
Hm... i'm having back ache now... always got this problem when i need to do the YSI machine... me too tall lah... stand and bent and stand and bent... (is that a compliment that you are tall or something? hehee~~)
Today going for movie... Yippee.. its friday... (somewhere my heart is not feeling that happy... coz it has been 3 days since he last smsed me....) May be going to or rather will be going to sentosa tomolo... hot hot hot.. will become black i think.. the weather is so hot nowadays....
Hm... i'm having back ache now... always got this problem when i need to do the YSI machine... me too tall lah... stand and bent and stand and bent... (is that a compliment that you are tall or something? hehee~~)
27 May 2004
*looking out of the window* The sky is dark now.. looks like it is going to rain soon....
I'm getting tired when days go by... kept dreaming about pple at work... alamak.. why huh? when can i have a dreamless sleep? Got a bit of headache liao...
I have 2 sides... what do i mean? I mean that i am begining to feel that there are 2 persons living inside my head... probably thats what others say - one angel and one devil... when you got a problem you will think of the pros and cons... to do it or not to... ya... the angel and the devil are fighting...
i think i felt this way is because of him... oh god, can he gimme a sign of something? whether its negative or positive doesnt matter... when will i have the chance to tell him how i feel? i think it has been about 3 years... i've dropped a whole lotta hints to him... but he doesnt catch it... what can i do? Probably he treats me like a normal friend... a basic friend... an acquaintance only...
From the devil:
"Cant you realise from this that he doesnt like you at all? No matter how much you are going to do, that wont change anything.. forget it.. you are never gonna be with him"
The devil is winning...........
I'm getting tired when days go by... kept dreaming about pple at work... alamak.. why huh? when can i have a dreamless sleep? Got a bit of headache liao...
I have 2 sides... what do i mean? I mean that i am begining to feel that there are 2 persons living inside my head... probably thats what others say - one angel and one devil... when you got a problem you will think of the pros and cons... to do it or not to... ya... the angel and the devil are fighting...
i think i felt this way is because of him... oh god, can he gimme a sign of something? whether its negative or positive doesnt matter... when will i have the chance to tell him how i feel? i think it has been about 3 years... i've dropped a whole lotta hints to him... but he doesnt catch it... what can i do? Probably he treats me like a normal friend... a basic friend... an acquaintance only...
From the devil:
"Cant you realise from this that he doesnt like you at all? No matter how much you are going to do, that wont change anything.. forget it.. you are never gonna be with him"
The devil is winning...........
26 May 2004
*Yawnzzz* felt so sleepy...
Hm... Sis called this morning.. she has arrived in Melbourne.. =) so envious.. i wanna go somewhere too... but then not for now.. hehee~~ maybe wait loh... there's a possibility for me to go and visit Atarena in september... (not confirm though)
brother has been occupying the PC at home to watch Naruto... *sigh* i cant use the PC until he finishes all the Vcds.. hey.. i brought them back one leh~~ *sulking* Hm...anyway, brother is working for Disney again...but not me this time round.. they had enough pple already. i think this time the show will be at Taka.. not sure yet... gotta confirm with him again.. i wanna go and watch the characters..hehee~~
Vivien suggested to go and watch "the day after tomorrow" on friday with their partners along... so strange huh... later cannot talk too much rubbish and acting stupid liao...
hehee~~
there's nothing much to do these few days... finished what i'm supposed to do... will try to find something to do later..or else i will bore to death.. (does it sound serious? hehe)
Update you guys again... Tata
Hm... Sis called this morning.. she has arrived in Melbourne.. =) so envious.. i wanna go somewhere too... but then not for now.. hehee~~ maybe wait loh... there's a possibility for me to go and visit Atarena in september... (not confirm though)
brother has been occupying the PC at home to watch Naruto... *sigh* i cant use the PC until he finishes all the Vcds.. hey.. i brought them back one leh~~ *sulking* Hm...anyway, brother is working for Disney again...but not me this time round.. they had enough pple already. i think this time the show will be at Taka.. not sure yet... gotta confirm with him again.. i wanna go and watch the characters..hehee~~
Vivien suggested to go and watch "the day after tomorrow" on friday with their partners along... so strange huh... later cannot talk too much rubbish and acting stupid liao...
hehee~~
there's nothing much to do these few days... finished what i'm supposed to do... will try to find something to do later..or else i will bore to death.. (does it sound serious? hehe)
Update you guys again... Tata
25 May 2004
Acne Game
Hey guys out there... if you think that you have nothing better to do, try out this game... i manage to clear the man's skin and still left some time.. haha~~
Hey guys out there... if you think that you have nothing better to do, try out this game... i manage to clear the man's skin and still left some time.. haha~~
Hehee~~ dreamt of something funny yesterday.. but then i'm not going to say that out here... because there's some parts where "children" are not advise to read... hahaa~~
Today is a bright sunny day... some of them are going running after work.. but i dun want to ... so tired this few days.. and then my appetite hasnt recover yet... like this morning before i came to work, i feel like puking again.. =(
Hm.. today sis is going to melbourne for a week or so. her flight is in the afternoon and so i wont be seeing her off.. (i gotta work...) heard from Atarena that melbourne is a bit cold now.. so hey my sick-prone sis, remember to take care of yourself!! (touch-wood) Hope you enjoy this trip with your BF... remember to bring something back for me hor~~ hehee~~
Today is a bright sunny day... some of them are going running after work.. but i dun want to ... so tired this few days.. and then my appetite hasnt recover yet... like this morning before i came to work, i feel like puking again.. =(
Hm.. today sis is going to melbourne for a week or so. her flight is in the afternoon and so i wont be seeing her off.. (i gotta work...) heard from Atarena that melbourne is a bit cold now.. so hey my sick-prone sis, remember to take care of yourself!! (touch-wood) Hope you enjoy this trip with your BF... remember to bring something back for me hor~~ hehee~~
Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday to you Pei Pei!!! 21st birthday le... hope that you enjoy yourself today.. and most importantly, stay happy alwayz... *Smilezzzzz*
24 May 2004
yesterday my cousin treated me to a dinner... Ramen... it was nice.. but i couldnt finish it... i got a small appetite these 2 days... i only had one meal on sat and sun... and today i brought bread here... feels like throwing out after eating it... whats happening to my body system? i thought i was a huge eater? (compared to some of my friends)
23 May 2004
Hm... Later going to cousin's house to return his anime vcds and then borrow something else from him to watch again..hehee~~
I'm thinking of him every now and then... hm... his big eyes, his double eyelids... his smell of hugo boss.. cant get sleep thinking of him... oh no... me kena "poison" by him...
well... up til now... no smses from him.. i know i may sound a bit impatient.. but then i still thinking of what Charmane said..."guys normally determine whether a girl is his potential GF or just a friend in the first meeting or whatsoever"... so if this is true... then i will i be the potential or will i be just a friend? a lot of things flashes through my mind every now and then...
If he is reading this blog, how will he feel? what will he do? Avoid me because he is frightened by me? or pretend he didnt see this at all?
Alamak... i think i'm back to the crazy person... still remember i said something that i am tired of waiting... but now... the simple meeting make my heart beat again... just like i've taken a stimulant... kept smiling, feeling happy.. etc...
I'm thinking of him every now and then... hm... his big eyes, his double eyelids... his smell of hugo boss.. cant get sleep thinking of him... oh no... me kena "poison" by him...
well... up til now... no smses from him.. i know i may sound a bit impatient.. but then i still thinking of what Charmane said..."guys normally determine whether a girl is his potential GF or just a friend in the first meeting or whatsoever"... so if this is true... then i will i be the potential or will i be just a friend? a lot of things flashes through my mind every now and then...
If he is reading this blog, how will he feel? what will he do? Avoid me because he is frightened by me? or pretend he didnt see this at all?
Alamak... i think i'm back to the crazy person... still remember i said something that i am tired of waiting... but now... the simple meeting make my heart beat again... just like i've taken a stimulant... kept smiling, feeling happy.. etc...
22 May 2004
Happy Day!!
Yuppy, changed my blog design... the girl is a goddess from anime "ah my goddess" i think... removed the clock at the cursor also.. hehee..~~ atarena, you need not feel vertigo again. heehe~~
Well, i just reached home actually... today i went out with him..ya.. first time.. i'm happy... hehee~~ dunno how to describe the feelings.. just happy.... he looked a bit like Sam.. and looked a bit like Beng Chyuan... smells like him too.. hee~~ we talked abit.. and then the rest of the time is walking around aimlessly... but its ok... because he is beside me.. a bit awkward lah.. but then still ok... hope that he will still meet me after today... hope that i didnt leave a bad impression of myself..
Well, i just reached home actually... today i went out with him..ya.. first time.. i'm happy... hehee~~ dunno how to describe the feelings.. just happy.... he looked a bit like Sam.. and looked a bit like Beng Chyuan... smells like him too.. hee~~ we talked abit.. and then the rest of the time is walking around aimlessly... but its ok... because he is beside me.. a bit awkward lah.. but then still ok... hope that he will still meet me after today... hope that i didnt leave a bad impression of myself..
21 May 2004
7 signs you're in a dead-end relationship
There's no real certainty in life or love, but you should at least feel more than 90 percent positive about your chances. Because the last thing you want (and we're all guilty of it) is to run in circles with someone who's completely wrong for you, someone who treats you like crap, or simply a relationship of convenience. Here are 7 telltale signs to look out for:
1. You have the same fight over and over
I'm not talking about the toothpaste cap. This is more like major, fundamental issues (money, physical intimacy, jealousy, etc.) that the two of you can't agree upon. And if you keep putting off the argument, only for it to resurface once or twice a year, you're not really making any progress.
2. You discover yet another big "secret"
OK, so you're not actually catching her in a "lie," but she sure does seem to have a lot of really huge secrets that you accidentally ¡X and continually ¡X uncover. Just how well do you really know her?
3. You see each other less than 15 hours a week, and still have little to talk about
Your schedules are so crisscrossed that you have little more than a few phone calls and two dinners together a week. But those dinners are spent in near silence, and you can't remember what your lawyer boyfriend's last case was about. Is it that you don't care, you have amnesia, or you're growing apart?
4. You can't stand her family or friends
A wise friend of mine once said, "I can tell whether or not a girl is right for me by her parents. If I like who they are and what they're about, then I know she'll be much the same when we get older." Certainly, there are those parents who are nothing like us ¡X and whom we want nothing to do with ¡X but generally speaking, you are the product of your parents. And as far as friends are concerned, you speak volumes by the company ! you keep .
5. After five years, one of you still can't "commit"
Or perhaps neither one of you is ready for a commitment. Although each couple is different ¡X and not all are designed to be in lifelong relationships ¡X if you still don't know whether you want to completely commit to your partner after five or so years, statistics show that you probably never will.
6. You have a wandering eye
When you're out with your single girlfriends, do you tend to drool at the eye candy or long for the attention of the opposite sex around the bar? Harmless flirting is just that ¡X harmless. But if you find yourself wanting more ... and more and more, you may need to consider what your relationship is lacking.
7. You're still waiting for him to change
Face it, ladies, they don't change. If you're waiting for the big turn-around, you might as well turn around and walk out the door.
1. You have the same fight over and over
I'm not talking about the toothpaste cap. This is more like major, fundamental issues (money, physical intimacy, jealousy, etc.) that the two of you can't agree upon. And if you keep putting off the argument, only for it to resurface once or twice a year, you're not really making any progress.
2. You discover yet another big "secret"
OK, so you're not actually catching her in a "lie," but she sure does seem to have a lot of really huge secrets that you accidentally ¡X and continually ¡X uncover. Just how well do you really know her?
3. You see each other less than 15 hours a week, and still have little to talk about
Your schedules are so crisscrossed that you have little more than a few phone calls and two dinners together a week. But those dinners are spent in near silence, and you can't remember what your lawyer boyfriend's last case was about. Is it that you don't care, you have amnesia, or you're growing apart?
4. You can't stand her family or friends
A wise friend of mine once said, "I can tell whether or not a girl is right for me by her parents. If I like who they are and what they're about, then I know she'll be much the same when we get older." Certainly, there are those parents who are nothing like us ¡X and whom we want nothing to do with ¡X but generally speaking, you are the product of your parents. And as far as friends are concerned, you speak volumes by the company ! you keep .
5. After five years, one of you still can't "commit"
Or perhaps neither one of you is ready for a commitment. Although each couple is different ¡X and not all are designed to be in lifelong relationships ¡X if you still don't know whether you want to completely commit to your partner after five or so years, statistics show that you probably never will.
6. You have a wandering eye
When you're out with your single girlfriends, do you tend to drool at the eye candy or long for the attention of the opposite sex around the bar? Harmless flirting is just that ¡X harmless. But if you find yourself wanting more ... and more and more, you may need to consider what your relationship is lacking.
7. You're still waiting for him to change
Face it, ladies, they don't change. If you're waiting for the big turn-around, you might as well turn around and walk out the door.
Nana's got a blog too!! Visited her page just now... not too bad huh... she said that Atarena helped her... (no wonder lah) heehee~~ now we are on the blogging trend huh... have to help vivien to set up one again... (",)(although she tried once and give up...)
Hm... that man beside me is not here today... think that he is sick lah... (serious or not?) but not too bad lah... so that he wont be spoiling my friday.. hahaa~~
will be going to West coast park's Macdonalds for dinner today... they say it's cheaper and we can chat all day.... =)
Hm... that man beside me is not here today... think that he is sick lah... (serious or not?) but not too bad lah... so that he wont be spoiling my friday.. hahaa~~
will be going to West coast park's Macdonalds for dinner today... they say it's cheaper and we can chat all day.... =)
20 May 2004
Yesterday we went to Bali Thai to have our dinner.. the food taste good.. if you are not that picky kind... We ordered 4 dishes and also a desert... Ah Na's favourite - Sweet glutinous rice.. hehee
I made Vivien cry yesterday... I was a bit shocked lah.. the whole thing is a little difficult to understand... so i dun think i will mention it here loh.. i only know that when i got home and took my shower, i did some handicrafts for Vivien using alphabet macaroni because i feel a bit guilty for making her cry... after i finished everything, i went to bed... i laid there for a moment, thinking of her and the handicrafts i made... tears then flow down my cheeks non-stop.. i think this is the first time i made a friend cry... (because usually i am the joker) I feel sad at that very time...I fell asleep at about 1am...
Today i passed one of the card i made to Vivien...(kept the other one because it looked really childish... hehee~) strangely enough, tears welled up my eyes for that particular moment.. and she too...
Now everything is alright now... the knot has been untied... that makes me realise that, she is really a good friend of mine...sometimes i even feel that she is my own sister... so i dun wanna lose her in any situation, whether i'm going to further my studies or get married or anything... Friends forever alwayz.........
I made Vivien cry yesterday... I was a bit shocked lah.. the whole thing is a little difficult to understand... so i dun think i will mention it here loh.. i only know that when i got home and took my shower, i did some handicrafts for Vivien using alphabet macaroni because i feel a bit guilty for making her cry... after i finished everything, i went to bed... i laid there for a moment, thinking of her and the handicrafts i made... tears then flow down my cheeks non-stop.. i think this is the first time i made a friend cry... (because usually i am the joker) I feel sad at that very time...I fell asleep at about 1am...
Today i passed one of the card i made to Vivien...(kept the other one because it looked really childish... hehee~) strangely enough, tears welled up my eyes for that particular moment.. and she too...
Now everything is alright now... the knot has been untied... that makes me realise that, she is really a good friend of mine...sometimes i even feel that she is my own sister... so i dun wanna lose her in any situation, whether i'm going to further my studies or get married or anything... Friends forever alwayz.........
19 May 2004
This is funny...Commandments
Commandment 1.
Marriages are made in heaven. But so are thunder and lightning!
Commandment 2.
If you want your wife to listen and pay strict attention to every word you say, talk in your sleep.
Commandment 3.
Marriage is grand -- and divorce is at least 100 grand!
Commandment 4.
Married life is very frustrating. In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens. In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens. In the third year, they both speak and the neighbors listen.
Commandment 5.
When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing: Either the car is new or the wife is.
Commandment 6.
Marriage is when a man and woman become as one; The trouble starts when they try to decide which one.
Commandment 7.
Before marriage, a man will lie awake all night thinking about something you say. After marriage, he will fall asleep before you finish.
Commandment 8.
Every man wants a wife who is beautiful, understanding, economical, and a good cook. But the law allows only one wife.
Commandment 9.
Marriage and love are purely matter of chemistry. That is why wife treats husband like toxic waste.
Commandment 10.
A man is incomplete until he is married. After that, he is finished..
Bonus Commandment story.
A long married couple came upon a wishing well. The husband leaned over, made a wish and threw in a penny. The wife decided to make a wish too. But she leaned over too much, well into the well, and drowned. The husband was stunned for a moment but then smiled,
"It really works!"
(Received this from my friend)
Marriages are made in heaven. But so are thunder and lightning!
Commandment 2.
If you want your wife to listen and pay strict attention to every word you say, talk in your sleep.
Commandment 3.
Marriage is grand -- and divorce is at least 100 grand!
Commandment 4.
Married life is very frustrating. In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens. In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens. In the third year, they both speak and the neighbors listen.
Commandment 5.
When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing: Either the car is new or the wife is.
Commandment 6.
Marriage is when a man and woman become as one; The trouble starts when they try to decide which one.
Commandment 7.
Before marriage, a man will lie awake all night thinking about something you say. After marriage, he will fall asleep before you finish.
Commandment 8.
Every man wants a wife who is beautiful, understanding, economical, and a good cook. But the law allows only one wife.
Commandment 9.
Marriage and love are purely matter of chemistry. That is why wife treats husband like toxic waste.
Commandment 10.
A man is incomplete until he is married. After that, he is finished..
Bonus Commandment story.
A long married couple came upon a wishing well. The husband leaned over, made a wish and threw in a penny. The wife decided to make a wish too. But she leaned over too much, well into the well, and drowned. The husband was stunned for a moment but then smiled,
"It really works!"
(Received this from my friend)
I'm Bored
Well, tried to change my blog design just now... but cant seem to get it right... got frustrated and decided not to change for now... hahaa..
It's dark and gloomy now... just like what i am wearing today... lady in black? hehee~~ no choice... my clothes are still waiting to be washed... (in other words, they are not washed.. hehee~) you can say that i'm lazy... coz i dun like to wash my own clothes... mum always does it for me.. thanks mum! *hugz* =P
Will be going to IMM again today.. with Ah Na and ViVien and Rac. They are going to Pet'r'us to get food for their dogs... (Wow, it's really fortunate to be their dogs!!)
It's dark and gloomy now... just like what i am wearing today... lady in black? hehee~~ no choice... my clothes are still waiting to be washed... (in other words, they are not washed.. hehee~) you can say that i'm lazy... coz i dun like to wash my own clothes... mum always does it for me.. thanks mum! *hugz* =P
Will be going to IMM again today.. with Ah Na and ViVien and Rac. They are going to Pet'r'us to get food for their dogs... (Wow, it's really fortunate to be their dogs!!)
18 May 2004
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Want to keep my blog as simple as possible... so you may find some links missing... my icq panel and clock are gone as well...
Well Felicia had gone home... she's still sick... alamak... i'm all alone now... with him... *bored*
Hm... will be going to a birthday chalet in Pasir Ris next weekend i think... for Lian Kun's 21st birthday... no overnight stay... because he invited a lot of pple to celebrate with him... wow... guess that i'm going to have a headache to think what to get for him......
Well Felicia had gone home... she's still sick... alamak... i'm all alone now... with him... *bored*
Hm... will be going to a birthday chalet in Pasir Ris next weekend i think... for Lian Kun's 21st birthday... no overnight stay... because he invited a lot of pple to celebrate with him... wow... guess that i'm going to have a headache to think what to get for him......
Very sleepy today... because dunno which idiot called us at home very early in the morning... and then dun wanna tok also... woke my whole family up... tired leh~~
Hm... friendster is getting worse... there's an email stating that i got a friendster message.. but when i logged in to friendster, the message is not there!! Can the friendster do something to their system? this is not the first time i encountered this problem...
Well, wanted to do something to my blog... but then there are no designs that i like at the moment.... no new skins...
Hm... friendster is getting worse... there's an email stating that i got a friendster message.. but when i logged in to friendster, the message is not there!! Can the friendster do something to their system? this is not the first time i encountered this problem...
Well, wanted to do something to my blog... but then there are no designs that i like at the moment.... no new skins...
17 May 2004
it's quiet today...Felicia is sick .. or rather she was already getting sick last friday... now then i remembered... me and ah na still asked her to eat Long John silver last friday.. hahaa~~ sorry friend...
Yesterday i cooked laksa... intending to bring it here today for felicia... guess tat she doesnt have the 'luck' to try my mum's cooking.. heehee~~ so i only brought rice for myself today..
Watched an MTV from Shirz blog... thats a touching one... she said that reminds her of me... and she dunno why too.. hahaa... maybe the parts that resemble me are.. during the part when the guy went to cut his hair and the girl was like staring at him all the while and doing stupid things and also in the end, the are not together... sad huh...
Yesterday i cooked laksa... intending to bring it here today for felicia... guess tat she doesnt have the 'luck' to try my mum's cooking.. heehee~~ so i only brought rice for myself today..
Watched an MTV from Shirz blog... thats a touching one... she said that reminds her of me... and she dunno why too.. hahaa... maybe the parts that resemble me are.. during the part when the guy went to cut his hair and the girl was like staring at him all the while and doing stupid things and also in the end, the are not together... sad huh...
16 May 2004
Hihi.. listening to cyndi's new song now... sitting in front of my pc, rotting, searching for wallpaper and midis that can be loaded into my phone... a hot day today... i wonder what all my friends are doing... are they out there having fun without me? Well nevermind lah.. because i'm going to try cooking laksa with mum later... this is going to be our first try... dunno whether it taste good or not... but anyways, gotta try before i know right?
Hm... what am i thinking? what am i doing? Are my feelings still the same? I dunno... i need a sign... i want a sign... can i? please?...........
Hm... what am i thinking? what am i doing? Are my feelings still the same? I dunno... i need a sign... i want a sign... can i? please?...........
15 May 2004
Today is a boring day... didnt see mum the whole day... i think she is still working with dad... hm.. havent had lunch... but then i'm not hungry also... coz just cooked campbell mushroom soup =) yum yum...
Having a little flu this morning... now ok loh.. well... tomolo will be another boring day... talk to you again!
Having a little flu this morning... now ok loh.. well... tomolo will be another boring day... talk to you again!
14 May 2004
Went to watch Troy... Brad Pitt and Orlando Bloom... for me i think that's a nice show... i like the fighting... but of course, i dun like the reason that they use to fight... and initiate a war... but i learnt something from the movie... that is " in a war, the young man will do the fighting/dying and the old man do the talking. so ignore the politics.." hehee~~ this is good...
Hm... heard from my brother he will be doing a disney show... i am not involved... because i think the coming up show dun need me.. because i cant do any character...=( anyway, it's ok... because i am saving up my leaves so that if i quit, i can offset with them... hehee~~
I still haven recieve any letter from the unis yet...=( more and more are getting it... just not me... sob sob...
He smsed me again this morning.. his sms seems to get more frequent... but then i dun feel that happy anymore... why is this so? Probably i'm just tired... tired of waiting and guessing and doing everything one-sided... ......
Hm... heard from my brother he will be doing a disney show... i am not involved... because i think the coming up show dun need me.. because i cant do any character...=( anyway, it's ok... because i am saving up my leaves so that if i quit, i can offset with them... hehee~~
I still haven recieve any letter from the unis yet...=( more and more are getting it... just not me... sob sob...
He smsed me again this morning.. his sms seems to get more frequent... but then i dun feel that happy anymore... why is this so? Probably i'm just tired... tired of waiting and guessing and doing everything one-sided... ......
13 May 2004
Hi Hi... a busy day for me... actually not that busy... just that i am trying to rush out my company's newsletter... when the first issue was published, it gave me the kind of satisfaction like "wow, this is Doreen's and my product!!" Probably it was not that great... but it was the hardwork from both of us.. hehee~~
Will be watching movie with my colleagues later... Will be watching Troy... featuring Brad Pitt and Orlando Bloom... hehee~~ shuai ge leh....
Will be watching movie with my colleagues later... Will be watching Troy... featuring Brad Pitt and Orlando Bloom... hehee~~ shuai ge leh....
12 May 2004
It's finally raining... after so many days of hot weather... i knew it... because the wind was slightly cool this morning when i wanted to take my shower... I'm a genius =P
Oh ya, today is 12th right? I think it's Charlie's and Liqing's Birthday!! Happy birthday to you guys.. =) Enjoy your day!!
Hm... today is the last day of this protocol... yippee... finally... dragging study.... but then a bit sad lah... because the day Jan is leaving is getting nearer and nearer each day... so sad.. will be missing her... just like we miss you, shirley.. =)
Oh ya, today is 12th right? I think it's Charlie's and Liqing's Birthday!! Happy birthday to you guys.. =) Enjoy your day!!
Hm... today is the last day of this protocol... yippee... finally... dragging study.... but then a bit sad lah... because the day Jan is leaving is getting nearer and nearer each day... so sad.. will be missing her... just like we miss you, shirley.. =)
11 May 2004
This is Sweet...
A very true conversation which we always hid in our hearts and never
voice it out until...............
If you see me walking the road with someone else
It's not because I like his company
Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat
If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him
Because you're not there to catch me fall
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound
Don't let me walk with him
It's you I want to walk with
Don't let me talk of him
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for him
It's you I want to fall in love with.
"THE ANSWER"
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty
that stands before me
When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship
When you thought I wasn't there to catch you
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already
grabbed a branch
If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.
voice it out until...............
If you see me walking the road with someone else
It's not because I like his company
Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.
If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat
If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him
Because you're not there to catch me fall
If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound
Don't let me walk with him
It's you I want to walk with
Don't let me talk of him
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for him
It's you I want to fall in love with.
"THE ANSWER"
When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty
that stands before me
When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship
When you thought I wasn't there to catch you
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already
grabbed a branch
If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?
Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.
Yum Yum... I am having my cake now... ya leftovers from Mother's day... anyway, it still taste good....hehehe~
It's really hot nowadays...somemore i have no aircon at home..only fans... the surrounding air is warm... and still... and humid...*sigh* when will the weather get better?
Hm... havent recieve any letter from the unis..some of my friends got the letter to NTU... direct entry to 2nd year bio... thats good huh...
It's really hot nowadays...somemore i have no aircon at home..only fans... the surrounding air is warm... and still... and humid...*sigh* when will the weather get better?
Hm... havent recieve any letter from the unis..some of my friends got the letter to NTU... direct entry to 2nd year bio... thats good huh...
10 May 2004
Wowo.... Had curry chicken for lunch today.. Cat cooked for all of us... yum yum.. thanks!!!
Busy Busy Busy... get so busy during that one hour when felicia is not in the lab..Argh.... i was like.. stop calling me everyone!! hehee... now Felicia is back... nobody calls... I wonder if someone is playing a trick on me...
Well...I'm going home in half an hours time...
Busy Busy Busy... get so busy during that one hour when felicia is not in the lab..Argh.... i was like.. stop calling me everyone!! hehee... now Felicia is back... nobody calls... I wonder if someone is playing a trick on me...
Well...I'm going home in half an hours time...
Yesterday's mother's day!! Did nothing much actually... bought intenz for mum to try... and a bouquet of carnations... mum looked really happy when she recieve the flowers...because from her wedding til now..she haven receive any flowers from us... then i brought her to dinner.. ya.. me only... sis gotta work and brother went for soccer..dad went fishing... well, treated mum to eat sambal kangkong and BBQ stingray.. yumyum.. so hot and spicy... later that night when bro reached home, we cut the cake bro bought for mum.. mum was really happy....
Hm.. Blogger has a new look!! That's great.. it's nicer =)
Well... didnt really have the time to blog over the weekends... my sis took away some cable from my PC and so cannot switch on my pc =(
Went to have a haircut last Sat... actually wanted my usual hairdresser.. but then she is not free at the moment... so cut by some auntie that i dun like... thats why my hair now looks a bit messy... she spoilt my hair!! Somemore dare to ask if i wanted to do a rebonding... *sigh* anyway, thats fate... because actually mum asked me to leave and come back later.. but i insisted on staying... bleh~
Later in the evening, I went to Vi's house... Cola mei mei was given to Rac... renamed Coco.. Aloy then drove us all the way to Bedok to try out the BBQ chicken wings and Bar Chor Mee.. nice lah.. but too bad i dun like to eat meat balls....
Well... didnt really have the time to blog over the weekends... my sis took away some cable from my PC and so cannot switch on my pc =(
Went to have a haircut last Sat... actually wanted my usual hairdresser.. but then she is not free at the moment... so cut by some auntie that i dun like... thats why my hair now looks a bit messy... she spoilt my hair!! Somemore dare to ask if i wanted to do a rebonding... *sigh* anyway, thats fate... because actually mum asked me to leave and come back later.. but i insisted on staying... bleh~
Later in the evening, I went to Vi's house... Cola mei mei was given to Rac... renamed Coco.. Aloy then drove us all the way to Bedok to try out the BBQ chicken wings and Bar Chor Mee.. nice lah.. but too bad i dun like to eat meat balls....
07 May 2004
Friday!!!!!!!! Yeah~~
Hm.. Today i got a free ride from SBS... the bus had the advertisement about fidelity investments. I think this is the company that sponsor the rides for today, tomorrow and Sunday. (Because it state free rides through the weekends) Thanks!!
Yesterday went to Yingz house... it has been a long time since i went to her house.. her mother still remembers me... she say that after so many years i am still that thin.. have to grow fatter than prettier.. hehee~~
At about 7.30pm, we went to Westmall to have our dinner... we ate at Sakae Sushi... the food... doesnt taste fresh... =( If i knew that, I would have gone for the new MOS burger branch... Anyway, after we ate, we went to shop and save to get avocados... Yingz said she wanted to make the Juice for me to drink... but then too bad... we dunno how to choose... ended up buying those unripe ones... they were as hard as stones.. ('~')
Hm.. Today i got a free ride from SBS... the bus had the advertisement about fidelity investments. I think this is the company that sponsor the rides for today, tomorrow and Sunday. (Because it state free rides through the weekends) Thanks!!
Yesterday went to Yingz house... it has been a long time since i went to her house.. her mother still remembers me... she say that after so many years i am still that thin.. have to grow fatter than prettier.. hehee~~
At about 7.30pm, we went to Westmall to have our dinner... we ate at Sakae Sushi... the food... doesnt taste fresh... =( If i knew that, I would have gone for the new MOS burger branch... Anyway, after we ate, we went to shop and save to get avocados... Yingz said she wanted to make the Juice for me to drink... but then too bad... we dunno how to choose... ended up buying those unripe ones... they were as hard as stones.. ('~')
06 May 2004
This saturday I'm going for a hair cut... i'm going to trim off my spilt ends... then 2 of my friends are going for rebonding... maybe after that we will meet up and then have a cuppa coffee together..heehee~~ yeah~ there's something to do liao.. no need to stay at home... and then Sunday is mother's day... probably will be bringing mum out for a sumptous meal... presents? I dunno what to give... see first lah..
Happy Birthday!!
Today is my buddy, Yingz 21st birthday. Happy birthday to you!! Are you using the wallet that we gave to you? Sure you do right? Anyway, I know that some things are getting hard for you... so I hope that things will become better from today onwards. Good Luck!! *Muackz* & *Hugz*
05 May 2004
You should be dating a Pisces.
19 February - 20 March
Your mate is loving and caring, trusting and
hospitable, and romantic. Though he/she can be
self-pitying, temperamental or dependent, the
fishes are quite romantic in bed.
What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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Yesterday went to Jurong Point to have my dinner (Long John Silver) with my colleagues and then after that we watched Koma... that show is not that nice actually... i mean the story line lah... got shocked a few times because of the sound effect other than that, there's nothing.
looks like its raining soon.. feeling tired today... bad hair day too... (coz i slept with my damped hair) I am feeling a bit down... no messages, no call (Although he said that he'll call), no email... wonder if anything happen to him or not... Probably got scare off by me... overly caring towards him... *sigh* i feel that i've grown dependent on his smses...
looks like its raining soon.. feeling tired today... bad hair day too... (coz i slept with my damped hair) I am feeling a bit down... no messages, no call (Although he said that he'll call), no email... wonder if anything happen to him or not... Probably got scare off by me... overly caring towards him... *sigh* i feel that i've grown dependent on his smses...
Firstly, let me say a Happy Belated Birthday to you Song Khim... Hope that you had fun in the iceskating session... still remember that i met you thru my friend in the iceskating ring too...
Secondly, Happy birthday Alex!! Too bad that you gotta spend your 21st in the NS.. but nevermind lah.. i guess someway somehow someone will celebrate with you right?
Last but not least, I want to wish both my friends, May all your wishes and dreams come true!!
Secondly, Happy birthday Alex!! Too bad that you gotta spend your 21st in the NS.. but nevermind lah.. i guess someway somehow someone will celebrate with you right?
Last but not least, I want to wish both my friends, May all your wishes and dreams come true!!
04 May 2004
Dreamt a lot of things yesterday.... about work and family... and the dream scene seems to change very fast...not scary though... but those dreams make my brain worked... when i got up, i feel even more tired...
Hm...guess that I'm stressed up by one person at work... my coming up protocol... there seems to have a lot to do... *sigh*
Anyway enough of those, today i'm going to catch a movie tonight with my colleagues... we will be watching koma... =) It has been a long time since i catch a show.. so i'm feeling abit happy~~
Hm...guess that I'm stressed up by one person at work... my coming up protocol... there seems to have a lot to do... *sigh*
Anyway enough of those, today i'm going to catch a movie tonight with my colleagues... we will be watching koma... =) It has been a long time since i catch a show.. so i'm feeling abit happy~~
03 May 2004
Had been smiling to myself the whole day today... Dun think that i'm crazy felicia... just that i am happy... you know why lah..hehee~~ I've read your blog... and it seems a bit hm.....anyway, whenever you feel sad or depress, just remember that stupid girl (sits on the left corner) who always say stupid things to make you laugh... (probably make you angry also, which i dunno)
Had my lunch... the new stall in NUH.. quite nice... their Yong tau fu sauce is unique... and a bit too salty... generally its nice... something different from what we eat usually... I've been here for about 10 mths... the food here is getting boring... worse still, there is this question floating around during lunch time..."what are you eating today?" Arghhhhhhh... this is the most difficult question ever.... (sweating)
Had my lunch... the new stall in NUH.. quite nice... their Yong tau fu sauce is unique... and a bit too salty... generally its nice... something different from what we eat usually... I've been here for about 10 mths... the food here is getting boring... worse still, there is this question floating around during lunch time..."what are you eating today?" Arghhhhhhh... this is the most difficult question ever.... (sweating)
Feel like skipping work someday... sometime... then stay at home... doing nothing... or watch my Prince of tennis... or listen to songs... or sleep... Tired of the work here... so slow nowadays... extreme leh.. sometimes really busy and sometimes free until siao... Busy is better... thats what i think lah.. Easier to pass my time...
Today the cargo lift broke down... lucky there is an auntie to show me where to go through the corridor to the passenger lift on level 2.. or else i will need to climb all the way to level 6... (like jan.. she climb all the way up here... panting hard.. hehee~~)
Today the cargo lift broke down... lucky there is an auntie to show me where to go through the corridor to the passenger lift on level 2.. or else i will need to climb all the way to level 6... (like jan.. she climb all the way up here... panting hard.. hehee~~)