Bday celebrations

We had a gathering at ZX's house yesterday to drink coffee (from their newly bought nespresso machine) and updating each other about personal/work life. How time flies, baby Ruixin started crawling, baby Rye is now a cute little boy learning how to form sentences and little Eunice has grown to become a pretty girl.

I was talking to VH about clothes and work when I saw ZX coming out from the kitchen holding a cake. I was asking, "whose cake was that?" And they replied, "it's yours"! I was so touched at that moment and upon going up to see what cake was that and... tadahh~~~! Stitch birthday cake! So sweet! They knew that I love stitch and that was what they got for me. :) *touched* This can be consider my 2nd bday celebrations with my dear colleague, ex-colleagues and soon-to-be ex colleagues. I still remember the first time was at ZX's house as well! We were making chocolate pound cake that time... awww.. once again, how time flies! Here's a photo of the girls, minus SP who is right now studying hard in Japan. :)

Too bad I got to rush off around 5.30pm to head for Little Yiting's bday celebration! She was wearing the dress I got for her as a present. So sweet looking! She seemed to know it was her special day and acted like a host. :) We went Swenson for dinner and she got herself a mini firehouse free :) After dinner we headed home and have the cake cutting ceremony. :) Will post pictures of the bday girl on FB! :)

Plans

It's a new week ahead.

I have to admit, I feel a little sad about not being involved in work after breaking the news that I'm leaving. This is too fast. Dear and ZX told me that I am too sensitive. I think I might have, but womens' instinct are usually accurate! Too bad, this is reality, they have to move on without me.

Just heard about some new plans made by koby from ZX. The new plans that's going to be implemented are definitely better... making work more challenging, getting involved in projects by holding meetings, senior acting as in-charge apart from supervisor etc. I can't help but to wonder, why didn't he think of that before I made the decision? Why only implement this change when everyone's left? Anyway, even if he did implement these earlier, my decision won't change when opportunity comes knocking. It's just a matter of time.

Probably the changes are to make ZX feel more impt in the company, so that she won't drop a sudden bomb like me. So all the best to ZX~!

2 consecutive sad days..

I told koby about resigning yesterday. I took the whole day to find a good timing. ZX n Ju wasnt around. I had plenty of time and opportunity to be alone with him in the afternoon. I didnt know how to break the news.. time passed and it was near to 5pm. He happily told me that we had finally succeeded in cloning.. and that was the time we entered the dark room to view the gel, I told him. The happy atmosphere stopped suddenly. I could see that he was shocked, even in the dark room. He looked at me with 3 sec silence, then asked " are you serious?". I nodded. He replied with an "ok" and went out. I was supposed to continue with gel extraction. 5 mins later, he came to me and said he wanted to talk to me.

We were inside the room. Awkward silences, heart to heart talk, advices and understanding each other. We talked with heavy hearted. We laughed to disguise our true feelings. Somehow I knew how he felt.. and he understood where I was coming from. Like Ju describe, it felt like breaking up with your other half, having to let go. He told me I was the special one and he planned to train me to be a key person. I felt happy, and sad at the same time. I knew all along. We had the special supervisor-employee relationship. But I had made the decision. I had to go. Not even increment could make me stay. He understood the limitations of the current company. It was near 5.30pm that we ended the talk. I was nearly in tears when he said, "thank you for talking to me"

I returned home with an extreme weight on my heart. Afterall, Koby was the one, the motivation of joining the company after my first interview nearly 3 years back - I can imagine myself having a cool Jap supervisor. It was like "bingo" on first sight.. I knew I will join this company, which I did.

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Today, I waited for 5.30pm, waited for all staff to leave the company, before standing up, passing the letter to Dr M. We headed to the room to talk. The same position. He sighed. We started talking. Dear mentioned that I should be able to handle the situation, since I got the "emo" experience the day before and talking to Dr M wouldnt be that bad. But no. It was worse.

Dr M told me a lot of things. Plans for the current company. He even asked me to stay on, give him some time to let him get all those ppl who had left to be back. After the persuasion, he knew that I wanna give sales a try. He understood me. I want to try new job before I get old. We talked for about 45 mins. He gave in and said. "Ok, you go ahead and try. 3 months later I will contact you again to see how you are doing. If it's not ok, please come back. We can wait for you." I replied with a "Thank you" and tears welled up. I think he knew I was going to cry. We stood up and left the room. Upon carrying my bag and stepped out of the office, I cried. All the way back home. Even as I am typing this post.

I felt guilty. It felt like a betrayal that I left for someone else. Dr M is too nice and fatherly.

I'm sorry Dr M. I never had such a wonderful boss and supervisor. Thank you for everything.

A new start on a monday

The weekend trip to Genting and KL was not that enjoyable. I wont say anything in details over here as it's all over. I got over it and dear "compensated" by queuing for 1 hr to buy my favorite bar chor mee in Crawford center upon reaching SG. :) He's really sweet and nice to me. haha.

Right now he's at the airport, going on a biz trip again til Friday. Have a safe journey dear~!

Silly dream that spoils my mood.

I woke up from my bed today with a heavy heart. I had a bad dream. I was crying hard in my dream. I'm lazy to describe my weird dream last night. But here's a few sentences to sum up : my love one left me for 3 times, and the 3rd time lasted 8 years. I found out later that he was living with another woman and a kid, in Thailand. -_- I told KK about the dream and he laughed at me. He said that he wont leave and and looking at him (in sloppy sleepwear) who would want him?? I replied "Thats why I found you in Thailand." Haha~!!

I guess it was PMS. Heavy hearted, I got ready and went to work. Bus took forever to come. I board the bus and heard a song on my mp3, with some flash backs, i nearly teared but I hold back. What makes it worse, a headache was developing.

I reached the biopolis shuttle bus stop, I received an sms from dear saying:

"Dear. We will always be together. =)"

Thinking

Seriously, I'm getting tired of working. It's getting so routine that I wished to take a break just like SY. Maybe a month of no pay leave, and then going for many short trips, since dear has to clear his accumulated leaves by Sept. Dear was tempting me about taking a month's leave from right now - in July, since my birthday falls in this month. Can I be so cruel to leave ZX? I dunno. I can't decide.