I have friends who treasure me.

To all my friends out there... blogging is a way to get the stress / anger / emotion off my bottled up feelings at that point of time... so... dun worry too much about me k? I'm happy that I received calls and arranged meet ups... and I hope that this will maintain. I will not sink into depression mode... since things have not gone down to a total mess.. I'll pick up the pieces and continue walking. =)

Thank you my dear friends

Sadness and Sorrow..

Yesterday I finally knew about those wobbly, shaking legs were so difficult to control when one was afraid... But I just had to move on, to stop those two from exchanging blows.. shouting to them was of no use, as both of them had let anger controlled... why did they have to do these? Who got hurt in the end? Poor mum.. she must had felt terrible at that time... but she had no choice but to squeeze her tiny body into 2 big-gone-crazy father and son.

I held them back.. I shouted at them... I cant move... I cant cry... not at that moment, at least... I always wonder why dad behave like this... I cant stand it.... where's the dad that doted on me when I was young? Where was the good brother I had all this while?]

I'm so sad... crying doesnt solve the problem... but i just cant do anything...

Free time before my class.

Minor things happening at work.. well, I'm not going to be affected by them.. coz I know exactly what I am doing. If my work is not done properly as you think, then that's too bad.. scold/reprimand/complain whatever you like...coz you know, we cant win against those SENIOR management.... Tired of those backstabbers as well... but come to think of it, "ren bu wei ji, tian zhu di mie" is what those pple may be thinking. haha~

Havent start my assignnment yet~!!! although the deadline is about 2 weeks from now... lazy lah... I'm going to finish watching my anime first.. so chiong ah~~~ wahaha

Another busy week for me.. got classes through out the week... and then meeting friends and attending wedding dinner over the weekends.. worse still, there's class on SUNDAY~ Sianz.

Okie dokie.. thats all for now.. tata~

The 777th post

There was a drama yesterday at my house.. all because of a small matter that dad and bro blew up. Sometimes I can understand my brother from his point of view... and this time, I think I'll stand up to him... Dad's behaviour and way of talking... is not a way that we, as his children, will respect him. Sometimes, even I want to run away from this home, taking mum with me, and leave him to grow old, to die alone.. However, the other side of me continued to stay.. coz afterall, i still have the sweet memories of him, when i was a child. Sometimes the desperate-going-depression me will think of jumping off the building, so that they can stop the quarrel....forever... coz they will be the ones to cause my death..

Afterall.. thats all the other side of me... I'm a coward. I cant do anything to help.

Tmr's my mini exam... and yet, not much info got into my head. Damn.

On Leave tmr

Happy Birthday RJ~!

Well, we bought a gift for him and passed to him yesterday...Green adidas jacket.. shared by several pple... Didnt included some other pple.. not that it's on purpose.. its just that kind of " didnt think of them" at the particular moment when we paid for the item.. worse still.. the others also forget about them (not just me) *opps~* Moreover our budget was on the higher end... so.. other pple may mind.. Anyway, to compensate for the missed out, I gave a suggestion to what they can buy for RJ's belated gift.. RJ's easy to read...I know what he lacks. wahahaha~

Jul and RJ will not be around in the office later in the afternoon... one's taking leave to go home and sleep, the other one gotta go for medical review.. I think for me, I'll clear whatever work I have, check whether i miss out anything, before i go on leave tmr to study for my exam.

Happy birthday~

Today's HC last day as well as her birthday... I wont be seeing her everyday from today... I will like to wish her a happy birthday and may all her wishes come true~ Miss her lots.. took some pictures and will upload once I got it from her.

My dad cooked squid yesterday... I was just talking with RJ about the only time that dad cooked was during my birthday celebration somewhere during my schooldays... primary or secondary I cant remember.. coz its so so long ago... and now, surprisingly, dad cooked what he fished a few days ago in JB.


I didnt want to try it initially.. but seems that no one appreciated his cooking.. as mum was angry with him for making a "mess" in the kitchen.. (and you know, guys dun usually clean up).. in the end, I went to him and tried... dad fed me =) it's like, back to my young days where dad actually cares for us...

By the way, Dor bday was last sat and we (SC n her girl, Nana and me) meet up for a dinner and Din Tai Fung before proceeding to coffee club to have our dessert... we tried the fondue and it's no bad.. probably the choco's a bit sweet. but i still like it. Here's a pic~

MCQ Exam is coming... next week and I havent started studying.. it'll be tough i think.. coz it's really a memorising module and my mind is always somewhere else... tell me how can i study and memorise stuff when i have my scheduled all packed up? *Sigh~~* Just need a miracle to get my brain to work.


Dear's parents are coming to singapore for gotta meet them up and join them for a get around singapore.. if possible.. on Thurs..

Friday Jul and Eu are intending to go sakae sushi to satisfy our sashimi cravings~! Probably going to hunt for some gifts

Sat's dear's graduation.. gotta go to support him and take lotsa pics~!

Some Happy Times

Introducing Wanru~~ My 3rd Niece born on 19 Oct

Cute Cute Wanni~~ My First Niece (becoming sister liao loz)

I've learnt a lesson

I'm quite down these few days... due to the fact the my dearest (ex)supervisor is leaving the company... She was the one who takes good care of me, listen to my problems regardless of work or personal, "suffered" my stubborness and talkative (or rather complaining) personality... She is a responsible person and knows her work... She is someone that I really respect and look upon... Sometimes i wish that she can bring me along with her.. to leave this company...

I didnt ate anything during her farewell session... it seems that I dun want to eat those things (esp they are my fav sushi) implying tat she's leaving me real soon... She hugged me and I cried (and everyone else was "booing" me coz they had been "forcing" themselves not to cry). I still behave like a kid in front of her... she was just like a big sister to me..

Ever since she was not my supervisor (before someone else took over), I didnt make any effort in talking to her, having lunch with her like we used to... just everything suddenly becoming so distant (like a hi-bye friend).... pple tends to start regretting things when they are about to lose it... and right now.. i'm facing it myself... the only thing that i wont ever regret, is having to meet her, becoming her colleague and becoming her friend. I still have a lot to talk to her... but right now.. all i guess is to give her my best wishes.. as deep down inside, i know that she will understand what I meant.