"I have found someone to protect"

Today bro sent me to work.. dropped me at NUH bus stop. I didnt realised that his initially intention was to drop me at NUS bus stop.... so did i made him turn a big round to get to his workplace? I hope not. Sorry brother. Next time i shant take your bike to work le. (Although i love taking your bike)

While sitting on brother's bike today....i am still thinking of the movie and the show i watched (refer to the post below)... both the main lead said the same thing.. "I had found someone whom i want to protect."

Howl's moving castle

A nice show.. i like Howl.. especially the part when he said he finally found someone who he want to protect.. so touched!! after finish watching the movie then i realised howl's voice was actually takuya kimura!! no wonder haru wanted to go and watch the movie so enthusiastically. Oh ya, the cinema's full of japanese.. i think they were there to support takuya.. because a lot of girls cheered when howl made his first appearance.

Finished watching "Mars" - Zhan shen. Lead by Vic Chou aka zai zai.. nice nice.. he was so handsome in the movie!! well, again... the show let me wonder... when can i find the one who i want to protect... to hold his hands til old....

Another one...

[ LASTS ]
cigarette:never smoke
car ride:this afternoon
kiss:last year?
good cry:last sat
library book:a few years ago..
movie seen:I do i do
beverage drank:Teh Peng
food consumed:Loh mee
crush:none at moment
phone call:Joann
sms:KK
time showered:this morning 7.15am
shoes worn:black covered shoes
item bought:Cake and flowers for friend's bday
time wanting to die:before my hubby

[ relationships ]
01. who are your best friends:Joann
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:no...single at the moment
03. who are your close friends?:Clara, Yingz, Vieth, Nana, Shirz

[ specifics ]
01. do you do drugs?:- Medicine?
02. what kind of shampoo do you use?:- Head and shoulders
03. what are you most scared of?:- darkness, loneliness, losing love ones
04. what are you listening to right now?:-mouse clicking from my colleagues.. and keyboard typing from myself. heh
05. who is the last person that called you?Joann
06. where do you want to get married?:Anywhere with nice ambience
07. how many buddies are online right now?:I'm not online right now... working!!
08. what would you change about yourself?:Hm... got a lot lah.but then i think it's not possible. ;p

[ favourites ]
01. color:All light colours.
02. food:jap, home-cooked
03. boys' names:Shawn, Xavier etc
04. girls' names:Angel, Yuxi, etc
05. subjects in school:- Music, biology
06. animals:- Dogs

[ have you ever]
01. given anyone a bath?:- nop.
02. smoked?:- nop
03. bungee jumped?:- nop
04. made yourself throw up?:- nop
05. skinny dipped?:- nop
06: ever been in love? :- yup
07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?:- nop
08. pictured your crush naked?:- err..
09. actually seen your crush naked?:- nop
10. cried when someone died?:- yes
11. lied:- yes
12. fallen for your best friend?:-nop
13. been rejected?:-yup
14. rejected someone? :- yes
15. used someone? :- nop
16. done something you regret? :- Hm... didnt really talked to grandpa before.. and he is not here anymore...

[ are you ]
understanding:- think so. heh
arrogant:- no
insecure:- sometimes
interesting:hee~ not sure
hungry:nop.. full right now
smart:average
moody:now? not really.

Survey

There are a lot of things in my mind now... just cant get them to become organised. coz of this, i cant really blog although i wanted to. That is why, i am including this little survey i had done...

Now: listening to BoA - Everyheart... thinking of a lot of things

LAST THING(s) I...
Bought: A drink - apple juice
Read: Ning ning's bulletin
Watched on TV: Cant remember
Watched on VCD: Mars "zhan shen"
Watched on DVD: Cant remember too

PREFER..
Club/house: house
Cats/dogs: dogs
Pen/pencil: mechanical pencil
Gloves/mittens: mittens
Food/candy: ice cream
Cassette/CD: CD.. or can i choose mp3??
Coke/Pepsi: Pepsi
Matches/lighter: lighter

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
Kill: no one
Kiss: no one yet.
Hug: Him...

FAVORITE..
Color: All light colours.
Shoes: Slippers can or not?
Handphone: Nokia 7250i.. but changing soon?
Song: A lot lah.. those got meanings one
vegetable: all kinds... except celery, capsicum
Fruit: strawberries, watermelons

LAST...
Last movie you saw: I do I do.
Last phone number you called: Home
Last song you heard: now? jolin - Ning meng cao de wei dao.
Last thing you had to drink : green tea
Last thing bought: lunch
Last thing you ate: mixed rice
Last time you showered: today at 6pm
Last time you smiled: just now when watching the vcd.
Last time time you laughed: few hours ago
Last thing you said: "byebye"

DO YOU...
sleep wif animal: no
Read the newspaper: sometimes
Believe in miracles: Sometimes
Believe in astrology: yes
Believe in magic: yes
Wear hats: nop
Have any tattoos: nop, but always wished to have one..
Hate yourself: seldom
Like your handwriting: yup.
Believe in witches: no
Trust others easily: yup..
Miss someone: definitely...

A guilty day

Hm... today not in a good mood... feeling a bit guilty towards my Protocol leader. I kept some of the original reports with me without realising.... then now, end of protocol - i found the reports when i was clearing my cupboard. To make things worse, there was one error on one of the reports. Oh gosh.. that report was sent from overseas.. so even i emailed the contract lab to send me another amended report, it will take some time. Hm... I wonder if i will get her into trouble. but first of all, I think i will get into trouble if the Team leaders want to make a mountain out of it. heh. I'm prepared for anything that's gonna happen.

Borrowed vcds from my friend and colleagues... wondering if i am able to finish them in time or not.. ;p

Angel and Devil.

Bluesky's angel and devil are here, in her mind and heart right now...

Devil: Did i make a mistake a year ago? I knew i won.
Angel: Yeah~ I lose to you that time.
Devil: Why is it that i am thinking of all these right now? i'm experiencing, some kind of sadness in my heart.
Angel: Do you? I thought that in your mind there's only victory and nothing else? Serves you right for not heeding my advice.
Devil: ... ... ...

Time for cracking my head to think of new objectives for the year. Yeah~ those of you who understand what "performance management".. you will know that it's a tough one. *sigh* Setting objectives for the job i'm doing everyday... cant think of any to write now.. and we are supposed to hand it up to HR by end of the month. Sianz.

Anyway, let me forget a this PM for a moment and do my blogging. Hm.. went westmall yesterday to do the transferring of M1 line to kk liao.. after that, we caught a movie. Constantine. Sorry Na.. was supposed to see with you.. but i watched it first. sorry. It's a nice show.. with a little bit of humour inside.

Hectic week for me.. and my energy is depleting... hope that weekend will soon come, so that i can have a good rest. heh.

Happy Birthday brother!!

hm.. so tired and so sleepy.. not in the mood for working.. well, i think none of us are in the mood for working. =p

Went orchard yesterday to meet up with some sec sch friends.. hah. girls talk. We had fun talking and laughing. It's been some time since we last did that. However, something really did piss me off.. well, i wont mention it here, because that someone and something may probably read my blog. Anyway, we left orchard about 10 plus.. (waiting for the bus took up most of the time). Sianz. anyway, got home at about 11pm.. *yawnz*

Been asked the same questions over and over again. sianz.. "how did you spend your Valentines' day?" "Did you received any flowers or gift?".. hm.. Felt really tired replying those questions... Argh!! Stop asking me!!

Happy Valentines' Day!

Pics from theotaku.com

Cute Pic... if anyone got a crush.. can use this.

Was waiting for my cd to be ready while typing this entry. Hm.. it's sunday today... gotta start working tmr.. it's brother first day of work also.. and it's valentine's day. That man will not be working tmr i think. he took leave before CNY. Good. At least my monday will be a little bit nicer. heh. Oh, good luck to you bro. Hope you will have a nice start!

Dun think that i will be going out tmr.. there's actually 2 invitations for a dinner, but i rejected.. V day is a day to spend with your love one.. since i dun have my significant yet, i want to spend it at home.. meeting other pple seems to be so weird. I know some pple prefer not to be alone on that special day... oh well *sigh*

Oh, i think that the new comment system for blogger is cool. Just like haloscan le...i'd remove my haloscan... so it's one less password and user id to remember. heh. my brain is flooded with all these passwords and user ids... Argh!!

Merry Saturday

Went Kbox this morning with ting and her friends. We had a good time singing, as well as laughing. heh.. i think they are planning to go again (but party world this time) next week. They are planning to enter the singing competition contest hold by party world. they even got an entry form for me.... however, i doubt that i will be joining.. i dun really think my voice is that good.. and i will get stage fright. heh.

After kbox-ing, i met nana and hil for walk walk at city hall.. dun have the mood to go shopping actually... coz everything i need, i got them before CNY liao.. Oh ya, Nana helped me buy Zhang Dongliang CD liao.. listening to it now.. nice nice. worth buying. hehe. she also lent me her VCDs.. " i have a date with vampire 3 "

Then we went Sheron's house for a makan session.. her hubby is a good cook.. i like the braise mushrooms and the soup.. hehe~ Her house is very nice also.. she got a walk - in wardrobe leh... next time i also want to have one. hehee~~

Sunny Friday

Hm... went to visit both grandmas yesterday.. was perfectly well initially... just that when i reached there... my uncles started smoking.. and that really irritated my nose... i couldnt stand it anymore and asked mum to move on to the next grandma house.

Who knows, the other grandma's house was even worse!! dust everywhere and kids started running around, disturbing those dust on the floor and the bed and the curtain! i wonder wat my grandma's maid was doing when all of us were not around!! (my grandma and her maid live alone).. Argh~ those dust and dirt were flying around!! then i got my flu.. *Sigh* felt really terrible...

Anyway, i realised that all my cousins and nephew have really grown up.. some grow taller, some grow thinner, some are smarter and some are naughtier... then my aunties.. a lot are prettier and know how to dress liao.. then my uncles... grown fatter.. hahaa...

I wonder another 5 years down the road.. what will our families be like? will there be any more gatherings like this? i doubt so...

Happy new year

Hm.. new template.. again. heh~ did it in the office today... there's really nothing much to do also.. just clearing up some paperwork.. LH let us go off about 25 mins earlier. thats really nice of her... coz it's like forever waiting for time's up.

It's new year eve... just now, we (as in my family) sat together and had our reunion dinner.. i think this is the only year when dad actually sat through the whole makan session.. in the past, after he had his meal, he would rush off for his gambling session. this year, surprisingly, he waited us to finished everything (we had steamboat), had his XO.. and now, lying on the bed behind me, sleeping.

Tmr will be staying at home to watch tv.. its the same every year.. no visitors will come our house.. its the day for sleeping!! haa~ On the 2nd day of the lunar new year, then we will go to our grandma's house. hee~

Happy~

Just saw the pic shirz posted on the blog... actually, i found that there's some resemblance huh.. hee~ oh sister and brother, I finally found you after 22 years!

Hm, got Creative MuVo N200 for brother. Cost $215, 512MB.. I think it's still reasonable. I got that from Sim Lim too. I like the Slim one (shirz got).. but too bad, i'm getting for brother so i had to choose something he likes. hee~ After that i went Seiyu to get a braun buffel wallet for brother. His is torned and he is starting his first job soon at HP, so i decided to get another one for him.. Wah... spent a total of $300 on brother's bday gift.. but i think it's still ok.. coz this is the first time (out of 22 years) i got such an expensive gift for him.. only once. No more. heh~

Once again, thanks KK for driving me around to get that 2 presents.. oh ya, treat my wobbler martian well ok? next time i sit in your car, i want to see that still wobbling inside. heehee~

Angry~

Hmph!! Went to IMM best denki just now, wanting to get mp3 player for brother's bday.. I chose the model i want and asked the sales person some questions. he answered me in a haste and went to entertain another guy. initially, i thought it's ok, giving me some time to consider... then off he went.. for quite some time, came back with a box and took out an Ipod.. so the other customer is getting an Ipoh huh.. Anyway, i decided to get the creative mp3 player.. i gave an eye contact to the sales rep and he ignored me!! fine, i waited for another 2 to 3 mins.. he totally treated me as if im invisible!! I got really pissed off then, me and mum decided to walk off... there are more shops out there and gives better service!!

Now then i realised retail therapy helps in some way or another, i got back to clementi and bought 2 x 3/4 pants and a belt for myself, got sis and mum a tshirt each and nana a belt... total i spent with 15 mins.. 100 plus. heh~ it did relieve my anger caused by that stupid sales person just now.

Anyway, back to mp3 player... KK is accompanying me to get one tmr. hee~ thanks!

Blogging

Was blog reading just now... I realised that i cant post any comments on haRu page.. furthermore, it's a little difficult to navigate through the eGen page... hence i decided to write something in here.

Hey girl,

I understand the hurt and pain you are going through.. I know this feeling of being avoided by the one you love.. coz i experience something like that some time ago. Give him some time to think over.. a week, a month, a year, whatever amount of time he needs.. when time pass, he will come to realise that you are a good friend of his.. dun press him for an answer.. when he thinks through it, he will contact you again. i believe.

I know that no words can console your heart and mind right now.. the only thing i can say is, time heal all wounds. Right now, the more you want to forget him, the more you will think of him... maybe just lock the memories from him deep into some part of your heart.. although it hurts, it's sweet...

Take care my friend, dun be too pessimistic about love and life.. you are allowed to be down for some short periods.. but then after that, brace up and start all over new again. Time waits for no man. Cherish the time you have now with your friends and family. Things will go on smoothly sooner or later. Dun worry.

Just came home from seeing a doc.. those antibiotics really cost that much heh.. hope that i can be well soon.

Yesterday went to send off shirz.. she should be back in Melbourne, watching vcds.. How's ginger? Grown fat?? Still remember you guys after 54 days of separation?

Thinking about a lot of things today... maybe its because i am all alone at home.. self reflection heh? Maybe...