later meeting ying and shannie... heading for town....maybe will be buying birthday present for ying since she is there to choose the design....

brought some dessert here - cheng teng to share with my colleagues...but haven eat yet... just had my lunch... so full... Mum cooked yesterday and wanted me to bring it here... such a huge pot... i guess we'll have a hard time finishing it.. hehee~~ anyway, thanks mum... =)

ohaiyo~ hm... this morning met someone strange on the way to work here... he surprised me... because he was sort of like blocking my way, receiving me with a big smile and a hello... i dunno him.. all he do is say "good morning, this is for you" and passed me a piece of paper... on the paper, there are sentences that are quite meaningful... dunno what is his intention for doing this... spreading his thoughts? i dunno.. but i'll share with you guys...

Best Wishes, Peace and Wisdom

-Laugh out loud often and share your smile generously. (Twinkling of an eye)
-You don’t live in a world alone; your brothers are here too
-Kindness is a language, which the dumb can speak, the deaf can understand (Irish proverb)
-Happy is the person who finds fault with himself instead of finding fault with others (clarity and serenity)
-Forgiveness is not an occasional act; it is a permanent
-Righteousness is one thing, self-righteousness is another. May God keep from ever confusing them (Essence of righteousness)
-“Unconditional acts of kindness are moments of grace” be that kind of person. Don’t wait to be taught. Learn along your job. Get really good at it. Find the fun parts. Seize the day. This is your chance to be excellent with a sparkle in your eye.
-Often we choose our friends, but just as often they choose us. (Everybody is somebody’s hero)

Fairy and Angel

-A discovery is said to be an accident meeting a prepared mind. (Citizen of the universe)
-Being forgiving towards others is being kind to yourself. (Mother Theresa)
-Happiness is not having what you want, more so it’s wanting what you have (Counts your blessing)
-No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted. (Frank laughing fox)
-Without courtesy, what is there to distinguish men from beast? (Boy from man)
-What do we live for, if it is not to make life less difficult for each other (heaven on earth)?
-There is nothing noble in being superior to some other man. The true nobility is in being superior to your previous self (Forces of light)
-A sure way for someone to lift himself up is by helping to lift someone else up

Tmr is thursday... nothing to do this weekend... dunno when ying will ask me out to get her birthday present.... she wanted a PC wallet... so i think i'll chip in with some of her friends.... Alex birthday is reaching soon too... dunno whether to get him a gift or not..hehee~~

This friday... not sure whether Ah Na they all want to go out or not... Dog run? Maybe and maybe not.. depends... this month really broke liao.. bought expensive things and eat expensive food.... next month got 2 persons birthday... plus mother's day... hm... wat should i get for mum? just a treat? Some gold? Intenz? Extrim? Hehee~~ headache lah... somebody. anybody... any ideas?

Bright bright sunny sunny.. no appetite these few days... feeling sleepy... tired of working...

dark and gloomy looks like it is going to rain soon... I'm feeling better... straighten out the things with sis and bro individually... *phew* Things will get better mum.. no worries...

Thank you to friends out there that are concerned about me... i really appreciate it... life's great with friends around!

A sad day for me yesterday... everything was going well... when bro and sis started a quarrel.... i froze in fear....this is the first time i saw bro so angry.... even threaten and pushed sis... i was scared... i cried... i ran into the toilet to hide and cry... is he my bro? I dunno... my hearting was pounding hard... why, why did he have to do that? i know that sis made a mistake... but theres's no need to be so fierce right? He even slam my chair... my digicam was spoilt... mum cried... thats the first time i saw mum cried...she was hurt... hurt terribly...mum even got bruised when trying to stop bro from hitting sis... mum never cry even she was quarrelling with dad...this time she was hurt terribly by my bro... i cried... the whole night.. i was hurt too... the all time protective brother to me turned out to be so fierce yesterday... i feel like crying now even when i am typing this... there's a scar in mum's heart now.... i know that... so did i.... pls dun do it again...

today is friday... surprisingly, a lot of pple is wearing pink today at work... such a coincidence huh.. hehe~~ today is a happy day for me.. He sms me...alright, i admit... i started the conversation through sms... and he continued... little words, little gestures... makes my day happy... he said that he appreciate me and he feels the same too... =)

I know that maybe he just treat me as a friend... I know that i may not have the chance...but then short term happiness is enough for me... sweet memories...of course, if i can hold on to this happiness is great... but then i think that the chances are slim..i can only think... let my heart and mind wander around etc etc...

da da da dub.. hehee~~ feeling so cold right now... i'm so happy today... received an sms from a friend...once in a blue moon then sms me one... but thats enough... enough for me to smile whole day whenever i think of it.

The sky is not that bright today.. looks a bit gloomy... Maybe because they have found another body out from the collaspsed Nicoll Highway... thats a tragedy... thats all fated.. if heaven wants to take pple away, you cant avoid it... if heaven wants me to go with him.... i cant say no to him also.... but of course, i will fight for it... For those that are still missing out there in the rubbles, Gambate ne~ dun give up hope... someone will find you soon...

Early in the morning... rise and shine!! hehee~~

Went to Vi's house to see Rose, Cola and Cola Mei mei...So cute!! cola mei mei is so small.. so shy.. so cute... when i carried her in my arms, it felt so small and tiny.. not like cola... a bit fat for his age...hahaa~ We brought them outside to poopoo... and guess what, inside rose poopoo there's one chilli.. the whole chilli still intact and not digested.. thats funny..hee~~ After that we feed all the 3 of them.. and off we go for dinner...

We went (ah na and Jan also) to Marina South to eat steamboat... not that nice the food... the soup like forever not boiling one... thats the worst steamboat i ever eaten... the seafoods, fruits and everything do not taste fresh at all... luckily that meal doesnt cost much...about 12 bucks... so i guess its ok.. but will not frequent that shop anymore...

Hi Hi... Here i am again!! Just finished listening to a talk given by our company's big big big boss i think... fly over from Indy... This man seems ok... friendly... unlike the others in the company.. hehe...

Yuppy...Shirz is quick in replying email. i've also put up a link to her website... =) maybe when i dont have the time to email her, i can ask her to visit my blog. .hehee (I'm getting lazy huh)

Anyway, today is cold in the office... one of my colleagues even started wearing gloves... i mean wool gloves!! thats exaggerating leh.. but then true enough, her fingers are really icy cold...

2 + more hours to go before i can go home and watch my anime vcds... prince of tennis..Ryoma-sama!! hehee... Til then, see ya!!

So warm today.. my eyelids are heavy... so stuffy in my office... can hardly breathe....

Today's a busy day at work... worked 8-5pm...nearly forget to go home.. haha.. thought 5.30pm... Felicia reminded me..hehe~~

Just had my dinner... my back aches...feeling bloated.. its the time of the month.. again... sianz... that's the life being a female..

Boring today...got a lot of "clean up" to do... i mean the cleaning up of the documents...reprinting new forms... drawing up roster...etc... the only thing that makes my day happy today was.... a subject smiled at me today... so sweet.. a long sweet smile...with eye contact... so captivating.. hahaa~ makes my heart melt... it has been a long time since someone smiled at me in that way...anyway, there's nothing between us... (there wont and i wont, because he is a volunteer.)

Ok... end of today... watching tv later... all the way to 10pm and its time for bed..hehee~ 8-5 again tomolo...see you again !!

The most destructive habit = Worry
The greatest Joy = Giving
The greatest loss = Loss of self-respect

The most satisfying work = Helping others
The ugliest personality trait = Selfishness
The most endangered species = Dedicated leaders

Our greatest natural resource = Our youth
The greatest "shot in the arm" = Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome = Fear

The most effective sleeping pill = Peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease = Excuses
The most powerful force in life = Love

The most dangerous pariah = A gossiper
The world's most incredible computer = The brain
The worst thing to be without = Hope

The deadliest weapon = The tongue
The two most power-filled words = "I Can"
The greatest asset = Faith

The most worthless emotion = Self-pity
The most beautiful attire = SMILE!
The most prized possession = Integrity

The most powerful channel of communication = Prayer
The most contagious spirit = Enthusiasm

Contributed by: Anonymous

Well, I know wats wrong when i visit my blog using my home Pc.... the pixels... so i guess, everything is alright now.. hehe~~

Went to pacific coffee (city link one) with Na and Vi... we chatted for a long time.. after that went to raffles city to continue our chatting... oh god, we sure got a lot to talk isnt it? Later on, Na felt a bit mouth itchy.. and so we went pasir panjang somewhere to have munchies..hehee...(we intended to go holland at first.. but we cant find any parking lots...)

Today, i went to dog run with Na and Vi again... this time, we brought cola along...(Although he just got his first immunisation...) I gotta carry him... because he is only about 6 weeks old... he walked very slow.. and cant keep his balance also... thats cute.. Vi's niece came with us too.. its fun today... i love dogs.. and cute kids.. hehe~~

Hm... the format of my blog looked a bit out of alignment when i'm using the pc at home... when i am in the office, everything looks fine... why is this so? I also dunno.. gonna find out and do something..hehee..

Today recieved the picture of Ginger and Shirz + Jo... so cute and so beautiful... miss ya so much friend... but too bad... i cant fly over and visit you... maybe someday sometime.. hehee... for a holiday... Oh ya, visited Shirz website... great... got lotsa pics of Ginger..heheee.. maybe i will put a link from my blog... when i get her permission...(Some pple only like to disclose their blog to certain pple... because there may contain some secrets!! whatever, I'm not sure.. hehee..)

Hm... will be having wheat bread + cheese for lunch later... supposed to be my breakfast.. but then Jer brought some cakes.. and i have hers first.. yum yum =)..

oh ya, Yesterday dreamt of something strange... I dreamt that me and my bro + a girl had some drugs with us... both the police and the society members were all after us.. during an emergency, the girl and me swallow all the pills we got.. somehow i managed to rush home after that... after i got home alone, i bumped into an uncle and he looked nervous. He claimed that he was looking for a friend but when i reached home, i saw my dad's legs are being chopped off!! surprisingly, there was no blood at all and the legs and my dad's body were still able to wriggle... funny dream... but then when i thought of it, its a bit scary huh... dreamt that my dad's legs were chopped off...

Hello... here i am again... my legs are tired from half a day's standing.... counting down the number of days before my protocol ends... hehee... 2 more days to go!! yippee!!

Well well... my office is feeling a bit cold today... and the weather outside is really hot and sunny... =) My brain is not working that well today... maybe its half sleeping half working..hehee... got up at 6 am today... Know what, watched a show today... Not that fantastic and not that scary... but when the channel was on and i was all alone in the tearoom... the feeling is really a bit strange.. just like the ghost is just standing around me.. haahaa... not to worry, thats over... scaring myself..

Hm... my boss wants to meet me and have a one to one session with her.. i guess it is about the news that i am going to further my studies... dunno what to talk to her also.. but got no choice.. have to tell her... my supervisor say they want to make plans...

Yippee... finally changed the design of my blog.. looks livier.. hehee... more like me.. because the blog is blue in colour.... nice nice right?

Went to Vi's house yesterday to see Cola... he is soooooooo cute!! just like a polar bear... but i can see that when he grows up, he will be a mischevious and a fierce one... (Cola is just a pup and he kept trying to bite Rose legs!) Yeah~ there will have another dog next time we going to sentosa...hehee Rose was very happy to see us... and she gets jealous if we play with Cola and not her... thats nature... but not to worry rose, i like obedient dogs... i think i will still like you!

After that we went to have or dinner at west coast... the food was nice.. we each chose a dish... and we had sambal kangkong, hotplate beancurd, black pepper beef and mee goreng.. yummy... we had to pay about 8 bucks each. thats consider cheap...

Anyway, talk to you again!!

Hm....half day gone... got a filling meal... but that was just for a short while... got hungry again... so fast... ate Mamee... drank a cup of tea...now feeling ok.. but then still feel like eating... dunno whats wrong with me... sometimes poor appetite... then now good appetite...

Maybe later I am going to Vi's house to see her new dog, Cola... a japanese breed i think.. medium sized one... smaller than rose definitely... now cola is a male... still a puppy.. thats why i wanna see it.. he must be cute... poor rose, dun get jealous ok?

The sky is gloomy.. and i am lazy.... hehee... one more week to go.... and my protocol will end... then my colleague's protocol will start.. tats good... no need to come so early... dun have to prepare so many things also.

Mum got better yesterday... or at least, she didnt think negatively about the words i said... my friends said that my mum is trying to get our attention...is it? i am not that sure.. but frankly speaking, nowadays i kepy going out with my friends and is leaving her alone in the house...mum, i'll try to spend more time with you ok?

Went Vi's house for a small gathering... then after that went Jan house...Tried learning mahjong then... but there are a lot of rules and things required to know.. so got a bit bored and decided to give up... went on to play cards with Na and Jan.... thats a lot better... no need to think unlike mahjong..

Today is a boring day... nothing much to do... cleared my work.. but ssh... dun tell the boss or esle they will find something for me to do.. .heheee... *sign* got a pimple below my nose.... so painful....

I am so hungry now... dunno why kept feeling hungry these few days.... i must eat something fulling later for my meal.. tata for now!!

my mum has been acting strange since that quarrel incident... she seems to get frustrated and angry easily... she link my words to negative thoughts and then scold me.... what am i suppose to do? i dun know... hope that time will let her forget the worries... she has grown old.... i dun wanna upset her further... but then she seems to assume that nobody is helping her... she ask me not to talk to her if i am not helping her... *sign*... i cant seem to get happy with my mum feeling this way... my world actually contains a large portion of my mum... now the way she's treating me... i cant help feeling sad... nobody can help me... the only thing that i can do is not to further agigate her... mum.... i really hope that you can forget about this whole thing... i am scared... i am worried about you...

Yup... feeling sick today... down with a flu.. feeling sleepy the whole day...didnt go to see a doc... because i am lazy.. and then i can rest over the long weekends..

Today is a sad day actually... today is the first time ever i saw my mum shouting and swearing... at my neighbour... both (neighbour and us) have faults... when i saw the incident... i feel very strange... i dunno how to help my mum... she was alone... and my neighbour got her husband with her... i cant do anything.. i feel terrible...my mum sounded harsh.. i dunno what to do... I'm sorry mum... cant help you.. all i did is sit down there and listen.. Wanna known what happen? thats about the space my neighbours are occupying... their things have blocked our way to getting our window washed... they put a lot of things outside... 2 carts, plants and more plants, shoe racks and is stacking up all the way... then mum splash water at our window and the water dripped directly onto their shoes... thats when the conflict starts... until now, mum is still angry. I dunno how to help her ease the anger... but somehow... i feel that mum shouldnt do that too...

enough of those... just now feeling better.. me and some of my colleagues went to west coast recreation center to play pool.. that was the first time i try for a full game.. i know that my aim-ing is really lousy.. so sorry for letting you guys down.. maybe i need to practise more... i'm actually bad at all aim-ing games... after that we went jacks place to have our dinner.. the food is bland... somemore i am sick... so the food taste even blander... so stayed on to chat..as usual... and probably sat going to some ones house to learn mahjong...

Brother bought 3 games yesterday Yugioh, Romance of the 3 kingdoms and ninja turtles... the first 2 are rpgs... the last one is an action... Ninja turtle... nice to play...hehee... it has been a long time since i played action game with brother.. so nice... you know, girls are a bit lousy in this kind of games.. and die easily right... but brother kept on protecting me during the game and leave all those recovery items for me..hehee..

My neighbourhood opened a 24hr vcd rental machine... yup a machine...using some kind of card to borrow and top up $$ using the machine there also... cool huh...can watch vcd whenever... its cheap also... if you borrow and returned within 6 hours it cost about 1.25. if you recommend pple there you can get dunno how much credits.. borrowed some vcds... like LION KING 3!!! Not on cinemas... not that nice to watch also... talking about hakuna matata... how timon and pumbaa get together... it's like describing some scenes about lion king 1...

happy happy today im happy!! Friday again.. and then after work going out with colleagues for snacks and tea... hehee...

One sad news....a lot of my colleagues are having thoughts of tendering their resignation letter... i am sad about this... although i may be leaving for studies... but still, cant help feeling sad...sobsob..

One good news... received a forwarded sms from the person..hehe...although thats just a normal sms, i cant help feeling happy... thats who i am.. easily contented for some things...

Hm, nowadays having more pimples on my face... alamak.. dunno why leh.. stress? probably... and part of it i think i have been using 2 kinds of facial wash for the past few weeks... maybe that disturb the cycle of my usual cleansing... think i better get a good facial wash soon... or else my face.. eeeeee

Hi all... feeling a bit sick yesterday night... so skipped dinner.. was having a bit of flu and fever... but then luckily today feeling ok...or else have to take MC and stay at home... anyway, tell you more later.. me going to have my lunch!!