Adjusting to new environment

A fresh start tmr. I hope that I will not have any monday blues. It was a right decision to start my first working day on a Thurs (as it falls on the 1st). I just had to work 2 days and I have time to digest the information i gained over the weekend.

The first day was scary. I had a talk with my boss and it seems like there are a lot of things that I need to learn. He seems like a nice man who has high hopes for me (or maybe simply for the benefit to his own company). He wanted me to get use to the new work, especially getting myself prepared emotionally, as he knew that the transition from doing lab work all these years to a sales job is not an easy task. He had been through it and he knew. Despite saying that, he still stressed me up by saying that he wants to me be involved in product training, and probably some contract stuff with CROs in future. Too early to say that to me. I was overwhelmed.

I then discovered that I am the only sales person who has a strong science background. My manager herself was a business grad. That was part of the reason they chose me (the other reason was a feeling - they sensed my sincerity. haha!). Up till now, all experiments were run by my boss himself and the workload seems to be increasing. So I need to run experiments next time, when there's a need. Great! That means I wont have to forget my lab skills entirely! On the other hand, with the strong science background, training was done in a fast and furious mode. They already expect me to know quite a lot of things. Crash course.

I got a tortoise lappy which seems like taking forever to start up and shut down.. that will be mine throughout my stay and I can bring that back home anytime I want to (which I don't feel like it coz its a heavy tortoise)! I was also given a workphone, an iphone 3GS. -_- with that phone on hand, I knew how to treasure my iphone 4. hahaa~!! oh ya! I was also being told that I need to be in focus for the full 8 hours at work... not to be distracted by chats and smses unless its something life and death. I did for the first 2 days and I can assure you, I was having mobile withdrawal at the end of the day and I was spamming my group whatsapp after that.

First day was over fast and after all those training and big talks, I was mentally drained. I was having fear that I couldnt catch up. I feared a lot of things and kept having my thoughts strayed. Dear was not with me for the first 2 days of work and I had no one to turned to. I felt like crying. Too stressed up I think.Luckily, 2nd day felt better. Probably it was a friday. Took home 2 impt catalogs and wanted to study them over the weekend. But as I am typing this post, the catalogues had been left untouched ever since I placed them on my study table. opps!!

Alright! Time to get ready for tmr! Jia you bluesky~!!